This Feeling Never Leaves Me Alone

I come with good news, a rare but much appreciated occurence in the PPBG world. My mother and my stepdad have both gotten legitimate salaried jobs. My mom is now the Director of Audio Visual at a large ski resort and my stepdad is an inside salesman at an international company that owns many smaller companies, one of which sells metal.

As usual, my parents have started fantasizing about all the things they can afford now. A better car. My long promised laptop. My tuition. Braces for all of us. I am excited about our new stability, but it's a cautious excitement.

I don't think I'm emotionally stable enough to get my hopes dashed again. I talked to my mom about letting me try my hand at budgeting because, to be honest, I think I could do a better job than they could. She knows it too, but she said no. "Some things you just don't want your kids to know," she said.

I am happy and nervous, but ready to enjoy a little stability for once.

Let Me Be the One You Call to, Baby, All the Time

12/12/07
So I figure you should know that I love you. I've been in love with you for months and I just couldn't say it. Everytime you say you love me my heart stops and, for a second, I can't breathe. Trust me, it's not a bad thing because it makes me feel alive. You make me feel alive. The cute way you freak out when I get hurt or the way you always get what I mean. My heart aches when someone hurts you. All I want to do is hold you in my arms and never leave you. But you need to know, I can't always be there. I can't always put you first. It kills me because I know that's what will happen.

weird to look back huh?