Stood on the Edge of Your Bridge Until I Felt the Rain

I'm kind of scared of myself. I dig myself these holes. I cry everyday, now.


I just want to erase everything from my past and start over.


Somewhere new, but still the same. I always think Seattle. At least then I could have the rain.

So What, So I've Got a Smile On, But It's Hiding the Quiet Superstitions In My Head

I'm not going to school this semester and at first I was consumed with anger. I was angry with my mom for not being honest with me, I was angry with my dad for not keeping up with my life, and mostly I was angry with myself for not seeing this sooner. For not taking affirmative action. For not taking responsiblity.

Now, I am more at peace with it. I'm working more, I'm saving money. I found a car I might be able to buy. I've even started applying to universities again. I think that, although this situation is less than exemplary, there is a silver lining. I will go back in the summer to catch up.

That isn't to say I'm happy with it now. I'm most certainly not. However, this is something I can control, something I can fix.

There's Things You Need to Hear

I (am):

1. Female, I think this explains alot.
2. 5'8"
3. Brunette?
4. Blue-eyed
5. Emotional. Alot of the time. Do I hide it well?
6. Always thinking. Much more than I talk, so you can imagine how much that is.
7. Secretive.
8. Ambitious.
9. Lazy.
10. Conflicting.
11. Relational.
12. Sassssssssy.
13. Love everyone, way too much, even if they don't deserve it.
14. Judge people in my mind, but when others do it verbally, I defend the victim. I feel this justifies it sometimes.
15. All I want to do is be myself.
16. Want others to always be honest, even if it would hurt me. Because I have to know.
17. Like to know everything.
18. Obnoxious, endearing?
19. Care about you.
20. Want to break all the rules, but I never break one.
21. Don't watch TV anymore.
22. Work at a movie theatre. I hate it most of the time, but I can't leave my friends. I have no hope of being promoted.
23. Love kids.
24. Have a look in my eye.
25. Seem more clever than I am, or vastly less intelligent than I am. No one really comprehends my mental capacities.

If you think of any more things about me, comment them. I Love To Know. (#16)