Can You Feel the Pressure?

46 days until Christmas. I have give or take 30 people I'd like to get gifts for. I think I can swing it if I start buying things now. The problem is I put way too much thought into what I want to get someone. I'd rather get someone nothing than something they wouldn't absolutely love. So I have been studiously researching things for everyone on my list. I know what a few people are getting for sure and then ideas for quite a few more.

There are people I never know what to buy for. My parents for example. I know my mom should get something practical but I know how much she loves sentimental things and my dad is the other way around. He has what he needs (he's pretty simple) but he isn't the sentimental type.

I am making extreme progress on my gift finding though. I'm pretty excited. The internet is a magical gift. Now if I can work enough to get what I want and if I can, then if I could only find the time to go out and buy the stuff. Wrapping is a joke.

Commercialism Purged All Over Me and I Love It

So thankfully I survived Christmas, so far. Oh there is more, but that comes later. I shall catalogue all my gifts. Seems a little shallow, but I have to keep them straight so I might as well have written a list.

Gifts of Plenty:

• Zune from santa
• Ben Folds Five dvd from my cousin
• Dashboard Jesus, cousin
• Knight of Ni bobblehead, cousin
• videocamera, aunt and uncle
• lotion, brother's girlfriend, aunt, other aunt
• Minutes to Midnight (linkin park), santa
• pajamas, mom, grandma, aunt
• sweaters, grandma, other grandma, greatgrandma
• Caroline Kennedy's book A Family Christmas
• alarm clock, nice try santa, im on to you
• Moulin Rouge dvd
• scarf, sister, neighbors, uncle
• socks, aunt, grandma, other aunt
• jewelry, brother, grandma, aunt and family
• shirt, stepmom, cousin
• the book Vampire Beach, brother
• a pooping penguin candy dispenser, uncle (lmao)
• Vampire Diaries, sister
• body shimmer, aunt and uncle, grandma
• t-shirt and hat with my last name as a university, grandpa
• Rebel Angels, A Great and Terrible Beauty, The Sweet Far Thing by Libba Bray, stepmom
• sapphire, diamond, and gold earrings, grandma
• scrunchies, grandma
• picture holder, grandma
• Bath and Body Works gift card, aunt
• Delia's giftcard, aunt
• Border's giftcard, brother
• money, grandma
• mp3 player speakers, cousin
• candy, santa, grandma
• lap desk, stepmom and dad
• love and affection, everyone yay

I probably forgot some stuff, but I'll remember later and add it with the gifts to come.

Hey Drummer Boy! I Need a Drumroll Please.

So here I am, it's December 23rd. Im not worried, Im not concerned. Im downright terrified of the next 2 days. I think I might be a Christmas failure. There are 9 people in my immediate family. Guess how many gifts I have for them. Oh that's right, none. Frickers! Usually I hate the last minute shoppers and now I join their ranks. Quite the demotion, let me assure you.

I might be able to get in on a few of my sister's gifts, but she is giving a ton of people crocs and I just can't be a part of that. Say I do get in on a few of hers, that still leaves all of my siblings and my dad. Why God, why?

Solutions! Tommorow's agenda is something I can work with. I have breakfast at my grandma's and then I can shop for a few hours. I'm magical with power shopping so I should be ok. Then if I hurry I can still make it to church, then off to work for about 2 hours, change and look awesome for the rest of Christmas Eve with the Irishmen. It's gonna be tricky, but honestly, I'm so much better under pressure. ( ahh Billy Joel how I love thee).

Let's talk about how it's going to work clotheswise. Now Im not like every other girl in the sense that I put on an outfit for the day and that's it. That is what I'm wearing. Tommorow is going to be a ton different. Hopefully I can pull off pjs to breakfast, then casual, then work, then dressy. *sigh* I dont wanna. Whatever.

Am I making any sense at all? I havent all day and I dont think Im any better. Maybe it was all the drugs for the sickness, maybe it is my natural oddities. Either way, I was probably unfit for work. Yeah, work was a bad choice. I get there at 9:20. So 20 minutes late, oops. The janitors got locked out so they are cleaning as Im opening. Well kinda. Opening was bad. Im horrible at it as it is, but today was a complete joke. I'm all messed up because I medicated myself numb, and the popper is broken and the manager I have at my disposal is mediocre at best. Thank God, there are more people coming in at 10. They get there and my manager assures me I'll get off early because I'm sick and we wont be busy. liar.

I spent 8 hours in that theatre half lucid and in charge. Finally some crew leaders get there to take over the delegation aspect and one is laughing at how I am making no sense and the other keeps telling me I look funny. Little do they know, I'm actually a ton better than I was yesterday. Just still sucky. haha.

I get through my shift and come home, all I ask is that my mom brings me a shirt for under my dress and she comes home with the last thing I want. Of course I was upset. I have had a really trying day and she comes home with this and it pushes me over. She thinks that it's only the shirt, but really its everything. Things I'll tell her, things I wont.

Right now, I am the epitome of emotionally drained and now I'm all emo. hurrah. I just want to feel better because for the next 2 weeks, I'll be going nonstop. Tommorow is Christmas Eve, the most intense family day for me of the year. Then its off to my dad's family after I do Christmas morning with my mom. Then I have work until close *dies* I get wednsday off, but really, I have to pack for Wisconsin. Then work, then well, Wisconsin. Before I know it, it's 2008. Another year, that many more things I have to do. I'll bet anything it's going to be one of the best years of my life though. Silver lining baby.

I'm Dreaming of a White Christmas

Finals to date:

• half of precalc/trig
• both halves of World Literature
• US Government

Finals tommorow:

• World Religions
• Art 4
• other half of precalc/trig

I've breezed through the ones I've done, and I'm not worried about tommorow. good or bad? I'm going with good.

So today was a good day. I got up, all of us were on time, I had tons of witty banter and I had time for breakfast. HOLY CRAP. what a wonderous morn.

My english final was bliss, I finished in half the time and got some good old reading done. Government was slightly more challenging, but easy none the less.

That's over, I pack my bag with things I'm supposedly going to study, but know I'm not going to anyway. teehee. Me and my prima favorita and my best bud head on over to Wendy's and wait for my sister's finals to be over. slight bump in the day when I had to kick my other cousin and her friend out of my car for trying to bum a ride from me without asking. gah.

I drop my sister at home and change, my cousin gets changed and we head off to the mall. oh happy day I love the mall. after a quick tet-a-tet, or however you spell it, with my friends boss about making sure a DVD is reserved for me, I'm off to go find a Christmas dress. I hit about one store when I get a call from my dear friend about said DVD. She wants to go pick it up with me so off we trot back to the store and have more witty banter and maybe some flirting with a different boss. huzzah.

Then comes the crushing realization that none of the stores I like have dresses I like. Then we get to the Gap and there it is, as if it has been waiting for me all day. It's red, it's adorable, it fits, it's mine.

a trip to Mrs. Fields, home.

today was so chill for a finals day, it's almost like someone sucked all the stress away. sweet.

snow, plans, and other things that im having fun with

soooo today I got an ice day, like a snow day but with freezing rain. Who knew you could be happy it was going to freezing rain? well never say never. I have a feeling its gonna be a good day.

so I looked outside and there is all this snow waiting to be played, huzzah.

tree decorating today, all 3 of them. obnoxious much? does it matter because its christmas time and everything is obnoxious? pics to follow?

ive discovered in this post that i have ADD, thats new. :D

so far, this has been my day:

• wake up in a panic thinking im late for school
• see the text from my best friend telling me about the "ice day"
• rejoicing
• more sleep
• i roll out of bed when my little sister asks if i would go pick up her friend 20 mins away
• i say no and grab some cereal
• i log on
• listen to some rock, as i should always be
• log on
• chit chat
• blog
• im contemplating either hot chocolate or a shower, im torn